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40 Movies I Can’t Live Without

1.  Funny Girl

2. Shawshank Redemption

3. Gone with the Wind

4. Star Wars: A New Hope

5. Mr. Magorium’s Wonder Emporium

6. Gone with the Wind

7. Back to the Future

8. Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring

9. Disney’s Beauty and the Beast

10. Toy Story 2

11. The Sound of Music

12. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban

13. The Women (1939)

14. Slumdog Millionaire

15. Mary Poppins

16. The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe

17. Anastasia

18. Pirates of the Carribean

19. The Boy in the Striped Pajamas

20. Spirit

21. The Prince of Egypt

22. Schindler’s List

23. Tuck Everlasting

24. Angels in the Outfield

25. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory

26. Raiders of the Lost Ark

27. Prestige

28. Goodbye Lenin

29. Singin’ in the Rain

30. A Beautiful Mind

31. West Side Story

32. His Girl Friday

33. It’s a  Wonderful Life

34. The Manchurian Canidate

35. Hello Dolly

36. Anne of Green Gables

37. Auntie Mame

38. Spy Kids

39. The Bicycle Theif

40. The Princess Bride


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Haiku Heights – Wings

If hope is a bird

with both feathers and wings, than

it can fly away

Haiku Heights



Verison #2


A thing with feathers

Also must have wings to fly

Hope has flown its perch

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100 Really Random Questions

1.In the film adaptation of your life…who plays you? And which parts get embellish? Left out?  I’m not sure who would play me. I’d actually like to play myself lol, I like to act. I like Natalie Portman and she is my complexion but a little shorter. I don’t think anything needs to be embellished, unfortunately my life has many dramatic events though we could cut out my teenage moping years lol

2.What year did you turn 17? Tell me a memory you have from that age I was 17 in 2005…I think lol. My birthday is in June so I was 17 for the majority of my senior year of high school. That was a great year. I loved the senior trip to Disney World and getting my own car the month before I turned 18. Of course it took all my money but it was worth it. 6 years later and I’m still driving the same car.

3.What are 5 everyday normal things that drive you crazy or annoy you? 1. When my four year old sister asks questions constantly. It’s great that she is inquisitive but she is never satisfied with the answers you give. 2. My 14 year old sister’s phone going off  every time someone texts her, which is every minute. 3.The fact that the nearest bookstore is 45 minutes away. 4.The fact that I had a 4.0 and still don’t have a job after graduating 10 months ago.  5. Our dog and his insane barking.

4.Tell me about the last film you saw The King’s Speech. I really liked it. I love almost every actor that was in and was so glad that it won the Oscar.

5.Who is the worse boss or teacher you’ve ever had? What didn’t you like about them? I can think of two right off the top of my head. One was my sophomore English teacher who thought she was teaching a graduate course. No, not even that…it was harder than that. She was insane. And then I had a college professor who really was insane. It’s sad because I think she was in the beginning stages of dementia. They forced her to retire after my semester with her but she would yell about weird things, publicly humiliate students and hand-write everything so you couldn’t even read your test questions.

6.Where is the farthest from home you’ve ever been? Why’d you go there? Well when I lived in NJ still I would travel 2500 miles to see my family in Texas. Now I live in Texas and travel the 2500 miles back to NJ to see the other part of my family.

7.Tell me about your first kiss, or the first one you can remember Hmmm I actually can’t remember my first one. I do remember the first one I felt was really a good ‘real’ kiss. It was a guy I was seeing in college. He came over to my apartment and kissed me when he left. It was in the lobby of my apartment and I remember feeling so special and hoped everyone was looking and feeling jealous lol

8.What is the oddest thing you’ve ever eaten? What is the oddest thing you’d like to eat? Seaweed. It’s gross. We ate some in 5th grade science class once, not sure why. I’m a vegetarian so I like to eat lots of ‘weird’  fake meat products. Ironically, my grandfather calls them “algae-meat.”

9.Have you ever read a book or article that had a lasting affect on you? What about it resonated with you? I am a huge reader so I’ve read many. I’ve been really moved by Viktor Frankl’s Man’s Search for Meaning and many books about strong women including Anna Karenina, Gone with the Wind, and A Handmaid’s Tale

10.What is the absolute best part of your school or job (besides just being paid for it ) I’ve graduate and am unemployed lol so I would say just having something to do. But in school I really did like learning new things in school.

11.What is something about yourself that you purposely do to annoy people? Hmmm I’d like to think that I am a very nice person lol.  I honestly can’t think of anything….things I do annoy my mother, like when I leave my change on the counter but I don’t do that just to annoy her. I hate it jingling in my purse.

12.Do you have any gems of advice? Doesn’t matter what it pertains to If you are a vegetarian, don’t move to South Texas.

13.Google your favorite color and tell me what it says about your personality. Is it correct? Having a personality color pink as your favorite color means you are loving, kind, generous and sensitive to the needs of others. I’d like to think that is true but I’m not the one to say.

14.Describe one of your friends in vivid detail. What do they look like? What is their personality like? What odd/bad/good/quirky behaviors do they have? Elizabeth Grou. A music major currently working in Human Resources and getting her teaching certificate. She is about 5’4 and average weight with brown hair a little past her shoulders. She is a joker sometimes to the extreme. It can be difficult to get her to be serious. She is always super busy because she loves to do new things. She loves classical music and the theater.

15.Tell me an inside joke. Feel free to skip right to the punch line and leave out explanations Omg, it’s my beautiful loving husband and he brought chips and salsa!

16.What are you absolutely awful at? Sports. I don’t play any and I can’t play any. I was on a soccer team once in 2nd grade and cried on the field in the middle of the game.

17.If you could ask for a gift without any monetary limitations what would you ask for? A trip around the world.

18.If you were an office supply, what would you be? A staple, I keep everything together.

19.What genre of music do you dislike? Find one song in that “disliked” genre that you DO like after all. Include a link to the youtube video or mp3. I generally despise rap music however I do like Enminem’s “Cleaning out my Closest” probably because I remember it from high school.

20.If you heard that your best friend has been arrested what’s the first reason that comes to mind? Something her boyfriend talked her into…like hiding drugs for him.

21.If your pets could talk what would they say about you? If you don’t have pets, what would your furniture say? My dog Raven would probably start a rant about my four year old sister Juliet because she likes to dress him up and put him in her baby stroller since he’s a tiny poodle.

22.Have you ever had an impossible thought you wish could come true? You mean like me traveling the world? Lol

23.What’s your method for coming up with usernames? I generally use one of two different ones I have. Jessiben is a shortened version of my name, Jessica Bennett and if that is taken then delphiandreams which is generally never taken. In fact if you google it, 90 percent of the stuff that comes up is me.

24.What are your thoughts on spontaneous combustion? I had a friend who said it happened to her uncle….but she also said her grandmother shot off her grandfather’s thumb and all this other crap. (And she told me this in like high school)

25.Make up a new word and it’s definition genufect – a person who is so smart, he or she seems crazy, a combination of genius and defect.

26.What do you like most about yourself? I appreciate that I am intelligent.

27.What is your favorite flavor in general? Raspberry

28.Well, how do you honestly feel? Right at this moment, today, yesterday, this week, this month or in general? Right now I am tired and there is something in my eye that I can’t get out. We are headed out to dinner at KFC. We have eaten so much fast food lately and for a vegetarian that equals nothing but my grandmother is in the hospital and no one else has the time or want to cook.

29.Which do you think would be harder for you…to tell someone that you love them, or to tell someone that you do not love them back? Depends on whether or not you think they might like you. If you are sure they don’t then telling them you love them is extremely hard.

30.Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend? Why or why not? Well I don’t know. I’m a really good listener but at the same time I’m kind of antisocial and don’t like going out to parties or even shopping.

31.If you had no choice but to go back in time and change one thing (even if you’re the no regrets kind of person) what would it be? Umm there was an incident where my therapist called the police on me that would be nice to change.

32.What is more difficult for you; looking into someone’s eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someone’s eyes when they are telling you how they feel? When I’m telling how I feel. It’s funny I have no problem whatsoever looking people in the eye except my therapists….I can’t look at them for more than a few seconds. I get so embarrassed by  most of the topics.

33.Would you rather Parallel Park or drive around the block? Drive around the block. I failed the parallel parking part of my driver’s test but he still passed me because it was my birthday and I cried lol

34.What is one thing all of your love interests have had in common? They didn’t love me back lol

35.What was the last thing you put in your mouth? Gum

36.Your phone rings at 2:00am who do you want it to be on the other end?  I would really like it NOT to be a friend with a crisis….ummm maybe my ex that I lost when I moved saying he misses me? Yeah that’s a dream.

37.Describe your bedroom in detail At the moment I’m  staying at my parents in btwn college and grad school so I don’t really  have a room I’ve made my own. I have a desk, two crammed full bookshelves and a queen bed with a floral brown bedspread. I have my Rosalind Russell memorabilia propped up on different places but haven’t hung it up since I plan to move again in the summer.

38.What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed? Ha, absolutely nothing, haven’t seen him since.

39.What were you doing 10 years ago? How old were you? I was 12, in 6th or 7th grade just trying to make my way through school.

40.What are 3 of your worst habits? 1. I pick at my cuticles. It’s nasty. 2. I chew on the ends of my hair. 3. I leave my dirty clothes on the floor.

41.If you absolutely HAD to move to a foreign country, where would you go? Oh goodness so many choices…England, France or Russia. England would be the easiest to adjust too, France because I have studied French, and Russia because Russian History is my specialization.

42.What turns you off? In the opposite sex? Blubber and man boobs 🙂

43.What were you doing 30 minutes ago? Eating dinner at KFC, I took a break from this to eat and have now come back to it.

44.If you were abandoned in the wilderness would you survive? Not if I had to cut off my arm like the guy in 127 hours. No, I’d probably die.

45.Where did you get the shirt you’re wearing right now? At a church retreat, for some reason they always have to give out tshirts at those things like you are supposed to go around wearing it to show everyone you are so godly or something.

46.What film, television or book character would you like to go on a date with? Sir Percy Blakeney from the Scarlet Pimpernel or Doctor Who (David Tennant version)

47.Finish this sentence: Johnny Depp…is bo-diggity. Ha.

48.List any 5 of your all time favorite things 1.Books 2.Music 3.Movies 4.History 5.Clothes

49.Tell me something I don’t know. I’m really kind of pissed at my sister right now.

50.What do you do that is random? I spout out movie quotes when they fit the situation.

51.What do you color co-ordinate anything? Alphabetize? I used to color-coordinate my closet but I’m not that anal now. Actually I don’t organize much of anything now.

52.What did you have for dinner last night? I’m trying to think….gosh I can’t Oh yeah, a microwave noodle meal.

53.Tell me about a piece of clothing you should throw out but can’t; why? My Barbra Streisand shirt from her tour in 2001. It has a hole in it but it was 50 f-ing bucks.

54.If the universe is everything, and scientists say that the universe is expanding; what do you think it is expanding into? That just means our everything is expanding, that’s exciting, either that or we are all stretching…

55.Would you believe in a liar who admits he is one? How can you? It’s like that thing that says the statement below is false. The above statement is true.

56.If a bus stops at a bus station, does your work stop at your workstation in office? It should, unfortunately life is full of contradictions.

57.What was your favorite Halloween costume and why? I was Queen Amidala when Star Wars Episode One came out. It was my favorite because it was the first time my mother let me buy a store-bought  costume. I even had my face painted.

58.If you could be invisible, where would you go and what would you do? I would sneak onto a plane and visit anywhere I wanted without paying. I’d also like to go debunk all the stuff said about different secret societies.

59.If you could meet someone famous, who would it be? Anastasia Romanova because I’ve always been fascinated by her and her family.

60.Do you believe that a soul mate exists for every person? No because plenty of people are single their whole lives.

61.Are you afraid of any particular thing? Heights? Water? I hate the Dentist. Lol

62.Are you really passionate about something? How did it happen? Mental Health Awareness. I’ve seen how people who are “mentally ill’ are treated and discriminated against but after being diagnosed myself I’ve seen it all differently of course.

63.Why do doctors leave the room when you change? They’re going to see you naked anyway. To make you feel more comfortable and they don’t always have to see you completely naked.

64.How important does a person have to be before they are considered assassinated instead of just murdered? Assassinated is supposed to be a term for being murdered for a political reason or because of one’s beliefs.

65.What job would you have had in the 1700s? Probably none, I just would have been a housewife who snuck the occasional political treatise.

66.Do you believe in a parallel universe? No put the ones in Doctor Who are really interesting. Freaky to think about it.

67.Who should pay for the dinner bill on a date? First date the guy should pay and afterwards you can split it

68.What are some of your favorite words? “I don’t know”

69.What day would you love to live again? June 10, 2002. I graduated from 8th grade with honors and a beautiful dress, my best friend visited from Chicago and I turned 14.

70.Tell me 5 pet peeves. Didn’t I already tell you five things that annoy me? You are making me look bad. 1. People who don’t knock but barge right in. 2. People who sing along when they have their earphones in. 3. When people pretend to know more than they do 4. Guys who look at your chest and not your eyes. 5. HYPOCRITES

71.Tell me 5 guilty pleasures. 1. Starbucks Lattes 2.Craft Stores 3.Listening to guys with accents. 4. Dressing up for no reason at all 5.Skinny dipping (it’s fun lol)

72.What’s your name’s meaning? Depends where you are getting the definition…either healthy, wealthy or blessed one.

73.If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy? A castle tour! Or maybe just my own castle

74.What are your favorite names? For a girl: Ava, Sierra and Marguerite. For a boy: Rhett and Jaxson

75.When did you stop believing Santa was real? I never believed in him, my parents though that took away from the real meaning of Christmas.

76.What do you think is the best place in this world for a honeymoon? Europe (if you live in the US lol)

77.Do you have any siblings? Tell me about them. If you don’t have siblings tell me about pets or other important family members. I am the oldest. I have four younger siblings. Josh is 19 and a freshman at UT Austin. Jenna is 14 and a freshman in high school. Jordan is 9 and a genius when it comes to math and science but he is very easily agitated lol. Juliet is 4 and very inquisitive and obsessed with Hello Kitty and Disney Princesses.

78.When Atheists go to court, do they have to swear on the bible? Yes, but what’s the point? Lol

79.Are facial piercings pretty or not? I personally don’t like them.

80.Do you like winter? Yes

81.How many hours did you sleep for last night? What do you normally sleep? Do you feel well rested? 7 hours. I feel exhausted. It has  been very stressful lately.

82.Do you miss anyone from the past? Yes, so many people. Old friends, my godmother, my ex.

83.What are your 3 favorite things to wear? Scarves/pashimas, my black high heel slip-ons,  earrings

84.What are 10 foods you love? 1. Soup 2.Milkshakes 3.Mint Cookies 4.Any kind of cheese 5.Creampuffs 6.Plums 7.Raspberries 8. Rice Pudding 9. Good Bread 10. Pasta

85.What are 10 favorite activities you enjoy? 1. Reading 2. Singing 3. Swapping 4. Making ATCs 5. Photography 6. Writing 7. Traveling 8. Horse-Back Riding 9. Shopping 10. Interior Decorating

86.What are your 10 favorite notable people of all time? 1. The Romanovs 2. Evita (I don’t like her so much as she’s interesting) 3. Princess Diana 4. Rosalind Russell 5. Elizabeth of Aquitaine 6. Mad King George 7. Catherine the Great 8. Maria Von Trapp 9. Grace Kelly 10. Bernadette Peters

87.What is your favorite weekend ritual? Sleeping in

88.What were your favorite subjects in school, and why? English because I love to read

89.What do you want less of in your life? Stress

90.What do you want more of in your life? Travel

91.What are your vices? Do you have plans to change them? Do others tell you to change them? Does that make a difference? I’m very judgmental and don’t trust people. I would love to be less judgmental but I’m not sure how one goes about changing a thought process. It’s not like I go up to people and say, I hate you I think you’re stupid, I just say it to myself lol. I really don’t know if I want to be more trusting though. I know it is detrimental to creating relationships but I’m afraid if I trust more I will simply get hurt more.

92.What is success? What is being rich? Does one imply the other? Success is finding happiness whether that is in being rich or not. Being rich generally means you have lots of monetary funds but I guess you can be rich in other things. I don’t think they necessarily go hand in hand because you can be monetarily rich without success or you can be rich in something like troubles. 😦

93.What does it take to become successful or rich? Are you either? Do you want to be? Successful is being fulfilled and having a good perspective. I’m not successful at the moment. I would like to be some day. I’m not sure about being rich.

94.Who do you considered successful or rich? How do you think they got there? Mother Teresa, she found something to do and did it to the best of her ability and changed lives with her dedication.

95.Do you love shopping? Why or why not? What are the next 10 things you plan to buy in the next month or two? Yes I do if it’s for certain things. I plan to buy 1. Coffee (I always have to have that) 2. Craft stuff 3. Postage Stamps 4. Movie Tickets 5. Socks 6. Food 7. Birthday Card 8. Gas 9. Nail Polish 10. Sunglasses

96.Do you make lists for anything? Are they helpful? I make lists of the ATCs I have left to make for different swaps and forums. They are helpful if I could only keep track of them.

97.Do you eat healthy? What is healthy eating? No. I am a vegetarian for medical reasons but I hate salad and a lot of vegetables so I generally end up eating junk. I live on milk, cheese and coffee.

98.What would motivate you to do things that you procrastinate on? If I had professors looming over me again threatening me with bad grades.

99.Name 5 things you’ve learned or discovered since you joined swap-bot about swaps, arts, crafts or something interesting in general? 1. International shipping is expensive. 2. My penpals never answer me. 3. Stamps are fun to look at 4. When there is no mail, it’s depressing. 5. You can have friends you have never seen.

100.Finish one of the scenes below. It can be as serious or wacky as you’d like. You must include the following 12 words AND your own name:

Jessica struggled to finish her gigantic final. It had to be 20 pages long! Professor Godwin was absolutely nuts! She had come in 40 minutes late and seemed to be flabbergasted that her students were more than a little pissed at her. Jessica struggled to read the handwritten questions but her mind kept  wandering with worry back to the fact that she still had to rush home and pick up her suitcase before practically sprinting at the speed of light to the airport. Why did she have this old dinosaur for a professor? Why couldn’t the woman at least learn how to use an electric typewriter for God’s sake! The test was supposed to be about French History but it could be about Japan for all that Jessica could make out.

What is Marie Antoinette supposed to have said about the starving peasants? “Let them eat…”

a. Bread

b. A Baguette

c. Cake

d. Each other

At least the questions where easy when you deciphered what they said. Honestly though, this woman was crazy, even her clothes looked like some antique heirloom and her speech flowed with the viscosity of tar. She was probably a hippie in her spare time or a jazzercising addict. Eeeww. Nevermind, the thought of Professor Godwin trying to do dance moves gave Jessica the heebie-jeebies. Perhaps she mixed up the French and Japanese test…Jessica could swear the next question said Hello Kitty. Oh my god it did!

In what year did the National Mint of France introduce Hello Kitty euros?

Either she is crazy or the whole world is…

gigantic, Professor, flabbergasted, suitcase, dinosaur, Japan, baguette, heirloom, viscosity, jazzercising, heebie-jeebies, Hello Kitty, (include own name)

Published in: Uncategorized on March 10, 2011 at 8:37 pm  Leave a Comment  

Sunday Scribblings #257 – Raw

That’s actually a very good word to describe me at the moment – raw. When I think of  “raw”, I think of that patch of skin at the corners of your mouth or the sides of your nose that after months of cold rough winter weather has been chapped and, if you are like me, you can’t help messing with it so the dried skin has come of and let it red. Red and raw. So that every time you sniff or open your mouth wide you feel the skin stretch uncomfortable and are reminded of the ugly red patches.

That’s what I feel like right now. Even if nothing abnormally bad had happened (like Gma’s hip) all the little things added up would have left me feeling this way. It’s not once fierce wind that leaves those patches of dry skin, its the tedious continual winter weather. The little things build up and strip away your protective skin slowly so that when you get to the point where it hurts you feel horrible crying out for help because someone is bound to say, “Well what are you griping about? Nothing too bad has happened. Life goes on, quit your yapping.” But all your protection has been stripped away and every little thing you come in contact with hurts and even that remark makes you want to cry.

And that’s how I feel today. One thing happens you go, “Ok, that’s not that big of a deal”, something else falls through and you say, “Well, I wasn’t too keen on that anyway” A third and perhaps you can still smile in understanding and comment that “That’s life.” but the fourth and the fifth, the sixth and seventh and you begin to wonder if God has something against you.  I have no defenses now. I almost broke down three or four times tonight when out with friends for no reason that I can readily think of, I was just tired, fed up, raw.

But the word raw also has a positive connotation as in the phrase, “raw talent”. It is untapped, unprocessed as raw vegetables are uncooked. Although raw skin can be red and painful it is also raw as in that it is new and unused. It is the new layer directly below the dry, dead epidermis.  Maybe I’ll be able to come out of this with a thicker skin.

Published in: Uncategorized on March 6, 2011 at 9:41 pm  Comments (3)  

Creeping out of a low spot. Sometimes I don’t even realize I’ve been down until I start feeling better. Its such an endless cycle at times. Its kind of funny that it seems the things you put the most work into people dislike and the things you do on the fly get praise. But that was off topic.

I got my hair cut, cleaned up my craft stuff and plan to clean up my room tomorrow. Unfortunately, coming out of the slump means that I think and feel again. And tonight I miss those people I know it is better to forget. I miss Flan most of all. I keep telling myself I don’t really miss her, I miss who I thought she was but that doesn’t really help becausee both the fantasy and reality are gone. And they all say, “You are better off without her” but what do they know honestly, they are not me. How can they judge how I feel and what is better or worse for me? If I was doing something that effected my children or husband I can see where others have a right to discuss my actions but I have neither.

I’ve been watching The Sarah Jane Adventures. I like it as just a show but I think what really draws me to it is that Sarah Jane reminds me of Flan. Not like Flan is fighting aliens from her attic but something about her. Perhaps it was that relationship between Sarah Jane and Maria. Her best friend is a kid and she is torn. She loves her, but she knows its not a good thing for Maria.

I miss Anthony. I need someone to love, to hold, to pet. A boyfriend, a baby, maybe I should just get a dog lol.  I remember him falling asleep and just lying there in my arms. It was my favorite thing. He was like a cute little boy.

I miss Kathleen. I miss Stephanie. And it reminds me that if and when (hopefully) I move this summer I’ll leave Letty behind. Another one. 4 therapists in 3 years. And I haven’t left any of them because I wanted to, well except Ruth  but even then I didn’t have anything against her, just against staying in Princeton House. And I’ll have to start all over again.

I can’t wait to get out of here. I’ve had enough of being back with my family, of living in the middle of nowhere. The people here havent seen much of the world, either have in except by proxy but that seems to count for something. The lack of diversity of people, ideas, activities, etc down here is stifling. And I am doing nothing with myself, my life, my knowledge but sitting here and watching old tv shows. And people don’t understand that I have tried almost everything. They look at me disbelieving that if I really put my mind to it, I would have a job. I can hardly believe it myself but its a fact. I can’t get a job. I don’t know why or why not.

I sympathize with Van Gogh.

Perhaps fate/God/whatever restricts people like Van Gogh and so many other geniuses from succeeding in their lifetime so that they contiue to produce unsullied by fame and fortune and then are remember more fondly afterwards, not that that is much of a comfort unless you can look down from heaven. Of course in heaven one is not supposed to care for earthly glory. Now I’m just rambling.

Published in: Uncategorized on February 26, 2011 at 10:04 pm  Leave a Comment  

It doesn’t end. This has been one of the worst nights ever.

Published in: Uncategorized on February 16, 2011 at 10:38 pm  Leave a Comment  

So I got into a fight with my father. I never get into fights with because I never talk to him. That only makes it more stressful. Mom’s still at the hospital and Juliet is scared and worried. For heaven’s sake she’s only four. She has been sitting next to me all evening asking if Mom-mom is ok if Mom will be home soon etc. Has she asked Dad? No because he is unapproachable and hidden behind his computer. So of course he’s blind to the fact that his four yeard old daughter is distraught. She doesn’t respond as quickly as he would like when he tells her to get ready for bed. I can hear him from across the house, screaming at her and she is yelling. Yeah sure ok, she didn’t obey right away but she’s four, she scared and concerned and he’s yelling in her face, DO IT! So I came in and told him to calm down, she’s upset. He tells me to shut up, he’s the parent. Yeah some parent, dosen’t even know what’s going on in his kids lives. He never has. If he knows anything its because Mom tells him when it gets out of her hands. He told me to leave. I told him I didn’t have to. I’m 22. He can’t order me around. Well that definetly didn’t make him happy because I was such a mellow quiet kid that did whatever anyone said to me but I wasn’t about to leave him with her. She was terrified and he has been known to hit in anger. So he told me not to say another word or else. Or else what? I didn’t have anything else to say so I did keep quiet. This whole thing with Mom-mom in the hospital is just going to cause so much more stress than anyone needs. I know its selfish of me but why the heck can’t she listen to Pop once in a while and not do stupid things like try to walk when she knows she’s unsteady. FML

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The Darkness

The Darkness

Originally uploaded by JessiBen

I can blog pictures from Flickr. Kind of cool….and pointless….

Published in: Uncategorized on February 16, 2011 at 7:37 pm  Leave a Comment  

Day 30: A motto or philosophy

Wow, I think it took me like 3 months to get through 30 days. A philosophy….one I try to follow but I fail miserably at most of the time…The Golden Rule.

Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.

Really hard to accomplish.

Published in: on February 15, 2011 at 9:16 pm  Leave a Comment